Growing Our Family

I feel like we have so many people who have been praying for us and are invested in our journey, so I thought it would be easiest to share details and updates this way. For those who don’t know all the details, Juan and I have been struggling with infertility. Before we got married, we discussed this potential scenario and were open to the possibility of adoption. Adoption has always been part of my life and I have always said I would adopt if having a biological child was not in God’s plan for me. So here we are. Now, who’s to say we won’t end up getting pregnant at some point down the road, but we feel called to be parents and are ready to start this journey.

At the end of last year, I had a laparoscopy procedure done to determine if there were any underlying issues causing our infertility (on my end). Low and behold, there were a couple issues. My doctor found stage 1 endometriosis and a blocked right fallopian tube, so in the end I was glad we went through with it. At the beginning of this year, I had bloodwork done again and my levels that are used to indicate egg reserve/quality were not that great. I was devastated to say the least. Of course, these are not the end all be all to determine if having a child would be possible, but this at least gave my doctor a plan of action on moving forward. Juan’s levels were also checked, and we both have been following our doctors’ recommendations while trying to minimize our stress, trust in God’s plan, and you know, keep trucking along. Sometimes that is easier said than done!

As long as I can remember, the desire/need/want/calling to be a mother has always been on my heart. To be a wife and mother was what I wanted most in life. I just felt like it was who I was meant to be. I thought by 30 I would be married and working on having a family. Instead, I got married at 37, so obviously God’s plan looked a little different than mine did! I had to remember to have faith that being married was part of my calling, my vocation. It just didn’t happen within the timeline I thought it would. Now it makes sense that maybe having a family would look a little different than what I grew up imagining it would. Honestly, I have greatly struggled with this over this past year, but in the past few months, I have gained some clarity and realized that I have to let God take care of everything.

I feel like this might be somewhat heavy for a first blog post (apologies!), but I feel it necessary to write these words down to release this burden that I have been shouldering this past year. And to remind myself that it is okay to grieve something I dreamt of having my whole life, but to also remember that God has something just as beautiful and wonderful in store for us. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for us. Please continue to do so because we all need prayers! I am looking forward to sharing this adoption journey with all of you!!

Love always,

Tina